I love this time of year. If I had to have a favorite, I think this would be it. In the fall things start slowing down, even just a little bit. The maples and oaks give forth thier last effort to be beautiful before they take their time off to rest. I love the colors of fall. The oranges, yellows, greens, reds and burgandys. So beautiful. This time of year it's good to take nice long walks, or sit in the backyard and read a book. It's not too hot and it's not too cold. The sky turns a rich cobalt before the grey skies of winter take over.
Inside, the windows start fogging up when I do the dishes at night. Comfort foods like homemade stew and roast begin to sound so good. Sometimes I think I can smell the yeast of fresh made bread as it cooks in the oven.
Yes, I love this time of year. I love that we, or maybe it's just me, can slow down. No more rushing to soccer games, no more weekend trips to where ever the wind may blow. This time of year it's nice to just be home. Just be with family. Just slow down, even just a bit.
Friday, October 28, 2005
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Lunch Date
I have a lunch date today. I realized yesterday that Peanut had am school, but not pm school so I said to her, "I guess I'll just take you out to eat."
Her eyes got really big and she said, "REALLY?"
I just started laughing. "Yes, where would you like to go on our lunch date?" I asked. "Applebees!" she exclaimed. I'm SO glad she didn't say McDonalds, but I would have obliged.
So,I guess if you need me around 11:30 today I'll be Applebees. But then I'll have to take on to daycare and it'll be back to work for me. Sometimes being a working mom sucks. I don't have the patience to be a stay at home mom, but there are days, like when she's out of school for just a day or two that I wouldn't mind having the same days off. Hmm.... maybe in my next life.
Peace and Love!
Her eyes got really big and she said, "REALLY?"
I just started laughing. "Yes, where would you like to go on our lunch date?" I asked. "Applebees!" she exclaimed. I'm SO glad she didn't say McDonalds, but I would have obliged.
So,I guess if you need me around 11:30 today I'll be Applebees. But then I'll have to take on to daycare and it'll be back to work for me. Sometimes being a working mom sucks. I don't have the patience to be a stay at home mom, but there are days, like when she's out of school for just a day or two that I wouldn't mind having the same days off. Hmm.... maybe in my next life.
Peace and Love!
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Things to do while your co-workers are on vacation
Monday, October 24, 2005
While I'm on the topic...
I grew up in the sticks, literally. I never understood why people wanted to go camping because I lived in the woods. It made much more sense to just come inside at bedtime and get a good night of restfull sleep. Part of growing up in the sticks is being bored. Afterschool I would get off the bus somewhere between 5 and 5:30. In the fall and winter months that didn't leave too much daylight hours to play. Not that I actually wanted to play when it was cold anyway. Well, I always looked forward to Halloween because I would get to use my creative skills and carve the family jack-o-lantern. As I got older I got more creative, I started carving skulls and cats and other stuff besides the scary face. So the other day when I got an email from my friend Joanna I was excited to see it was about pumpkins. Little did I know before opening the email just how cool it was going to be. Here are two of the examples of the pumpkins I found in my email. My creativity never matched this guy! So, I thought I'd share with you. Here's the link to his website and check the other pumpkins out. Hope ya'll enjoy them too. I think I'll try to do somthing like this--->
this year.
this year.
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Halloween
I have this same post here, but I wanted to see what the rest of you had to share. So for those of you who read both sites, sorry this is a re-run for you.
Ok, I know there are people out there that don't celebrate Halloween because it's an evil holiday and for those people, I say :-p "ptttttttthhhhhhhh! WHATEVER!"
Growing up Halloween was so fun. When else did you get to get all dressed up, have a party at school, and get so much candy your teeth hurt until Christmas! Some of my favorite costumes I remember were the clown, witches, oh then I was a punk-rocker--where I wore my mom's really really blue eyeshadow and red lipstick and my hair in a pony tail on the side of my head! Then towards the end of my dressing up years I started dressing up as the grim reaper. I made my own costume out of my older-taller brother's graduation robe (black of course) and I had a short black slip that had a slit in it so I wore this over my head and tucked it into the graduation robe. I pulled my long hair back into a pony tail so no one could see it. I painted my face white and outlined my lips and eyes in black eyeliner. I was around 16 or so at the time so I handed out candy dressed like this. It was so fun!What are your favorite halloween memories?
Ok, I know there are people out there that don't celebrate Halloween because it's an evil holiday and for those people, I say :-p "ptttttttthhhhhhhh! WHATEVER!"
Growing up Halloween was so fun. When else did you get to get all dressed up, have a party at school, and get so much candy your teeth hurt until Christmas! Some of my favorite costumes I remember were the clown, witches, oh then I was a punk-rocker--where I wore my mom's really really blue eyeshadow and red lipstick and my hair in a pony tail on the side of my head! Then towards the end of my dressing up years I started dressing up as the grim reaper. I made my own costume out of my older-taller brother's graduation robe (black of course) and I had a short black slip that had a slit in it so I wore this over my head and tucked it into the graduation robe. I pulled my long hair back into a pony tail so no one could see it. I painted my face white and outlined my lips and eyes in black eyeliner. I was around 16 or so at the time so I handed out candy dressed like this. It was so fun!What are your favorite halloween memories?
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Leslee needs...
This is fun! My new friend Jennifer did this on her blog, and it's a great game. Here are the rules:Type "(your name) needs" (with the quotes) into a Google search; cut-and-paste the first 10 responses that work. Just pull the answers right out of the excerpt Google shows you, don't click the link and search around. The only rule is that each one has to start with "(your name) needs."
Ok, so there just aren’t enough people with the spelling I use to need stuff, but here’s what I got anyway, #2 is really really mean!
Leslee needs the names and phone numbers of Reflection chairpersons from theseschools: Leota, Eastridge, Kokanee, and Woodin. ...
Leslee needs to eat something already. her bad breath is over-powering the wholeroom.
Leslee needs to get a Medicare supplement and wants to know if anyone in ourgroup can recommend a company. If you can help her, please e-mail Leslee at...
Ok, so there just aren’t enough people with the spelling I use to need stuff, but here’s what I got anyway, #2 is really really mean!
Leslee needs the names and phone numbers of Reflection chairpersons from theseschools: Leota, Eastridge, Kokanee, and Woodin. ...
Leslee needs to eat something already. her bad breath is over-powering the wholeroom.
Leslee needs to get a Medicare supplement and wants to know if anyone in ourgroup can recommend a company. If you can help her, please e-mail Leslee at...
Singin' and Prayin'
Sometimes I pray in the shower. Sometimes I sing in the shower. I find it relaxing, and you know I'm all about relaxing. With so many things on my mind I took the peaceful moment to have a conversation with God. I think I must not have been doing a good job conveying my early morning thoughts because my spirit had to take over. Or perhaps my spirit tries to help me out all the time and I push it out of the way. Or maybe not. I don't know. I'll add that to my list of questions to ask God when I get to Heaven. Back to the story--while praying this morning a song, that our choir sings, came to my mind and took over my prayer because it fit so well with what I was trying to say. Anyway, here are the words to the song-prayer.
Hear my words, oh Lord I pray. For my strength has gone away. Give me patience now to see that your goodness covers me. I must know that you still care. That in times of deep despair I can reach my hand to you, and you'll be there.
Guide my steps when I can't see. Help me learn to trust in thee. Be my shelter on the way as I struggle toward that day. For the strength of your good hand will direct me toward the land. And the promise you have made will lead me there.
Abide with me, fast, falls the evenin' tide. The darkness deepens, Lord, with me abide. When other helpers fail and comforts flee. Help of the helpless, oh, abide with me.
Guide my steps when I can't see. Help me learn to trust in thee. Be my shelter on the way, as I struggle toward the day. For the strength of your good hand will direct me toward the land. And the promise you have made will lead me home. And the promise you have made will lead me home.
Hear my words, oh Lord I pray. For my strength has gone away. Give me patience now to see that your goodness covers me. I must know that you still care. That in times of deep despair I can reach my hand to you, and you'll be there.
Guide my steps when I can't see. Help me learn to trust in thee. Be my shelter on the way as I struggle toward that day. For the strength of your good hand will direct me toward the land. And the promise you have made will lead me there.
Abide with me, fast, falls the evenin' tide. The darkness deepens, Lord, with me abide. When other helpers fail and comforts flee. Help of the helpless, oh, abide with me.
Guide my steps when I can't see. Help me learn to trust in thee. Be my shelter on the way, as I struggle toward the day. For the strength of your good hand will direct me toward the land. And the promise you have made will lead me home. And the promise you have made will lead me home.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
In a funk
Sorry if I haven't been my normal chipper silly sarcastic self the last few days. I'm in a bit of a funk. Decisions to make and all that. I'll try to find the real me. But if I should show up before I get back keep me here!
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Doing the dishes
I have a crazy kind of quirk. Well, I have many, but this one I'll share with you. I don't like to do the dishes unless I can sing while doing the dishes. I don't know when it started, but I find it very relaxing. My kitchen is pretty much set off from the rest of the house and the sink is at the end of the kitchen and to wash the dishes I have to turn my back to the rest of the world. We have a dishwasher, but it doesn't work, but I don't really like them anyway-it takes too long to do the dishes! I don't hear very well, so with the position of the sink I tune everything out.
But for the last week or so I've been sick, sounding like a frog with a frog in it's throat. I couldn't even go to choir practice last week because about everytime I opened my mouth out came a coughing fit. But tonight I just couldn't stand not having any silverware (we've been eating lots of sandwiches on paper plates so just the silverware gets used--Oh, and the picture isn't of my sink either, I found it in a Yahoo search) so I put the soap and water in the sink. I started singing a song, and to my suprise, it was decent. I'm not quite up to my Saprano voice, maybe somewhere between Alto and Saprano, but I managed to sing the whole song without coughing!
It's nice to get back to normalcy!
Negativity
Proverbs 10:11 (The Message)
The mouth of a good person is a deep, life--giving well,
but the mouth of the wicked is a dark cave of abuse
Is your mouth a well of life?
This was the question posed by Brian Houston of Hillsong at the Joyce Meyer Conference in OKC this last weekend. For months or even years, I forget how long, I've been a firm believer that what you speak is what you get. If you're constantly griping about something you'll be miserable weither it be in marriage, friendship, homelife, and even the job. Here are a few other points Brian made that night. (side note, he had scripture to back all this up, but I was listening so hard that I forgot to write most of them down, but he was preaching from Proverbs so you can go search if you choose.)
#1. Negativity is the verbalizing of inner defeat and expectation for the worst.
#2. Negativity always justifies itself.
#3. Negativity chooses your friends for you (Proverbs 13:20-Become wise by walking with the wise; hang out with fools and watch your life fall to pieces.)
#4. Negativity magnifies and distorts the truth.
#5. Negativity is sweeping statements and harsh judgements
#6. Negativity nullifies the work of the Spirit.
The mouth of a good person is a deep, life--giving well,
but the mouth of the wicked is a dark cave of abuse
Is your mouth a well of life?
This was the question posed by Brian Houston of Hillsong at the Joyce Meyer Conference in OKC this last weekend. For months or even years, I forget how long, I've been a firm believer that what you speak is what you get. If you're constantly griping about something you'll be miserable weither it be in marriage, friendship, homelife, and even the job. Here are a few other points Brian made that night. (side note, he had scripture to back all this up, but I was listening so hard that I forgot to write most of them down, but he was preaching from Proverbs so you can go search if you choose.)
#1. Negativity is the verbalizing of inner defeat and expectation for the worst.
#2. Negativity always justifies itself.
#3. Negativity chooses your friends for you (Proverbs 13:20-Become wise by walking with the wise; hang out with fools and watch your life fall to pieces.)
#4. Negativity magnifies and distorts the truth.
#5. Negativity is sweeping statements and harsh judgements
#6. Negativity nullifies the work of the Spirit.
Monday, October 17, 2005
Should I stay or should I go now?
Question. If you had a chance to get a job that offered about $8000 more a year then your current job and offered benifits such as medical, dental, vision, and 401k, would you go for it?
Background information. Let me start off saying that I'm a very loyal person. I don't just up and quit anything. I've been a member of two churches my whole life and the only reason for the second one was because my first church is now 4 hours away and that's a bit much to commute. I have never just up and quit a job on the spur of the moment. I even stick with the same kind of icecream for years and years. For me to even be considering another job while I currently have one is difficult for me. My current job is a good job with people that I mostly like. However, they do not offer ANY form of health insurance to woman (which I am, obviously). They don't have any retirement options such as a 401k. I was told a year ago that I wasn't eligible for a raise because I hadn't been there long enough-less then a year- and told this year because of recent additions to staff and the cost of all the raises given last year I probably will not be getting a raise this year-maybe next year a cost of living increase---MAYBE. Gosh, this job sounds like the pits. It's not really. My current job is very laid back, if I'm sick no problem, if my kid's sick no problem, if I'm occasionally late, no problem, if I want to come in on the weekends to finish something up, no problem. When I need to leave at 3:00 on Wednesdays no problem as long as the work is done. This job allows my child to attend the preschool program for free, they take her to kindergarten at the public school and pay for the afterschool care which picks her up from kindergarten. These are my ONLY benifits. These benifits amount to about $4000 a year. We're not strapped for money, but I haven't had health insurance for me or Peanut for about two years. Thank GOD, He has blessed us to be pretty healthy these last two years and when I needed to go to the doctor I just paid for the visits and the medicine. I'm not trying to make you feel sorry for me... I'm just pretty much thinking out loud trying to decide what I want to do. I have until the end of the week to submit a resume if I want to go for the job.
Background information. Let me start off saying that I'm a very loyal person. I don't just up and quit anything. I've been a member of two churches my whole life and the only reason for the second one was because my first church is now 4 hours away and that's a bit much to commute. I have never just up and quit a job on the spur of the moment. I even stick with the same kind of icecream for years and years. For me to even be considering another job while I currently have one is difficult for me. My current job is a good job with people that I mostly like. However, they do not offer ANY form of health insurance to woman (which I am, obviously). They don't have any retirement options such as a 401k. I was told a year ago that I wasn't eligible for a raise because I hadn't been there long enough-less then a year- and told this year because of recent additions to staff and the cost of all the raises given last year I probably will not be getting a raise this year-maybe next year a cost of living increase---MAYBE. Gosh, this job sounds like the pits. It's not really. My current job is very laid back, if I'm sick no problem, if my kid's sick no problem, if I'm occasionally late, no problem, if I want to come in on the weekends to finish something up, no problem. When I need to leave at 3:00 on Wednesdays no problem as long as the work is done. This job allows my child to attend the preschool program for free, they take her to kindergarten at the public school and pay for the afterschool care which picks her up from kindergarten. These are my ONLY benifits. These benifits amount to about $4000 a year. We're not strapped for money, but I haven't had health insurance for me or Peanut for about two years. Thank GOD, He has blessed us to be pretty healthy these last two years and when I needed to go to the doctor I just paid for the visits and the medicine. I'm not trying to make you feel sorry for me... I'm just pretty much thinking out loud trying to decide what I want to do. I have until the end of the week to submit a resume if I want to go for the job.
Vacations
I feel like I haven't been at work for a week. It's probably because I really haven't. Except for last Wednesday when I worked until about 3:15. I kinda wish I could take tomorrow off and just relax for a moment and do all the house cleaning chores that I haven't had the energy to do. The house isn't pitted out or anything. I've got a new vacuum so of course I had to try it out, and it sucks-which is a good thing where vacuums are concerned. I just haven't got to tackel all those other things I would like to, like the bathtub, it needs a good cleaning. And the sheets and comfortor on my bed could use a bath.... I've been going and going non-stop for days now I'm looking forward to normalcy of work. With Nickel's grandma dying our house became Grand Centeral Station for about 4 days with last Sunday as a day of rest(ie cleaning for me). Then as soon as that ended my mom showed up and away we went for our long planned vacation. Our vacation was a lot of fun! I always enjoy spending time with my mommy, however, I've been sick since they day Grandmother died. I cough and I cough and I cough some more. It was to the point where everytime I had a deep chest cough I had pain in my chest and upper arms for a couple of seconds, just pulled muscles I'm sure since the pain is gone with most of my coughs. Can you call in sick the first day after your vacation when you're actually starting to feel better? LOL, I guess I better not, there's a LOT for me to do when I get back I'm sure. Well, I guess I've talked myself into going to work and if I'm going to be worth anything tomorrow I had better get back to bed. 2 am isn't really the best time to blog when you have to go to work in a few hours.
Good night, good morning, have a great day!
Good night, good morning, have a great day!
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Waiting on Dr Pontious
"Are you waiting on Dr. Pontious" the girl said.
"Yes, is he in?" asked the woman holding two babies.
"Let me check for you....."
Tonight we're just chilling out in the living room, watching TV when in wheeled the doctor. I think she must work for Dr. Pontious. She fixes the naked babies up by washing their heads with Windex (well, until I noticed and made her put it up!).
Doc, if you're reading this, I think Peanut has forgiven you for making her take all those shots!
"Yes, is he in?" asked the woman holding two babies.
"Let me check for you....."
Tonight we're just chilling out in the living room, watching TV when in wheeled the doctor. I think she must work for Dr. Pontious. She fixes the naked babies up by washing their heads with Windex (well, until I noticed and made her put it up!).
Doc, if you're reading this, I think Peanut has forgiven you for making her take all those shots!
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Getting Away
Well, it's finally here! My vacation starts TODAY!!! I'll probably not be able to post for a couple of days so, miss me! I'll be back later this weekend with LOTS to tell you about.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
It HURTS
*the following is an actual conversation between Peanut and Daddy tonight*
PEANUT: WAAHHHHH!!!! It hurts!
DADDY: It's bedtime, be quite, lay still in your bed with your eyes closed and maybe it will stop hurting.
PEANUT: I need medicine!
DADDY: I already gave you the only medicine we have for that. We don't have any other medicine that will help.
PEANUT: WAAAHHHHH!!! It hurts!
DADDY: You have to go to school tomorrow, try to lay still and go to sleep
PEANUT: WAAHHHH!!! IT HURTS!
DADDY TO MOMMY: Will this medicine help? *holding the tube of triple antibiotic ointment*
MOMMY: Nope, but you could try it. It won't hurt anything and maybe she'll go to sleep.
DADDY TO PEANUT: Ok, we can use this. It MIGHT make you feel better or it MIGHT sting.
PEANUT: I think it feels better when I'm quite and I lay still with my eyes closed.
PEANUT: WAAHHHHH!!!! It hurts!
DADDY: It's bedtime, be quite, lay still in your bed with your eyes closed and maybe it will stop hurting.
PEANUT: I need medicine!
DADDY: I already gave you the only medicine we have for that. We don't have any other medicine that will help.
PEANUT: WAAAHHHHH!!! It hurts!
DADDY: You have to go to school tomorrow, try to lay still and go to sleep
PEANUT: WAAHHHH!!! IT HURTS!
DADDY TO MOMMY: Will this medicine help? *holding the tube of triple antibiotic ointment*
MOMMY: Nope, but you could try it. It won't hurt anything and maybe she'll go to sleep.
DADDY TO PEANUT: Ok, we can use this. It MIGHT make you feel better or it MIGHT sting.
PEANUT: I think it feels better when I'm quite and I lay still with my eyes closed.
It's a good thing
We have two blind guys that go to our church every Sunday. One uses a walking stick and people's elbow's to get around. The other uses a seeing eye dog. Recently Peanut has become very facinated with the seeing eye dog. Her doggy wags his tail and on occasion barks and pretty much asks to be petted all the time. This doggy however stands ver still when his owner is still and walks when his owner walks and never wags his tail. I've tried to tell Peanut that he's working and he acts just like her doggy when he's home and off work.
Sunday Peanut watched as the master and dog walked out to their car. "It's a good thing that lady, what's her name?" "Mary" I responded. "Yeah, it's a good thing Mary's here to drive them home."
Yes, Peanut, it's a very good thing!
Sunday Peanut watched as the master and dog walked out to their car. "It's a good thing that lady, what's her name?" "Mary" I responded. "Yeah, it's a good thing Mary's here to drive them home."
Yes, Peanut, it's a very good thing!
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Tears
Months ago I learned a few things about tears. I think now is a good time to share this information. I don't remember where I saw this, but I copied it down and saved it to my computer. I find it's fitting for a day such as this.
Angry tears spill forth from the outside corner of the eye, making them easier to wipe away as they come at unexpected moments and inappropriate times. They originate in the ego - the part of our being that presents to the world that we think we are. Angry tears create heat and stiffness in the body, because when we are angry, we usually don't know how to express what we feel. We definitely don't want anyone to know when we are angry, because anger is not acceptable or polite. Rather than display anger, we hold back, and the tears rage forth, shattering our self-image. More important, angry tears reveal to those around us our vulnerabilities. This, we believe, is not a wise thing to do.
Sad tears spill forth from the inside corner of the eye, finding their way across our nose, cheeks, and lips. For some reason we always lick sad tears. We know that they are salty, and the things that bring them forth are usually the bitter experiences in life. Sad tears come from the heart. They usually bring a bending of the shoulders and a drooping of the head.
Frightened tears take up the entire eye, clouding our vision, as fear will do. When we are frightened, we cannot see or think. Frightened tears are usually big tears that well up in the eye. They spill over the whole face. Frightened tears come from the soles of the feet. They shoot through the body and create trembling or shaking.
Then there are shame-filled tears, which fall when we are alone with our thoughts and feelings. Shame-filled tears come when we're judging ourselves, criticizing ourselves, or beating up on ourselves for something purely human that we have done yet can't explain to ourselves or to others. Shame-filled tears come from the pit of the stomach and usually cause us to bend over - not in pain, but in anguish.
Combination tears are the worst tears of all. They are filled with anger and sadness, with fear and shame. They have a devastating effect on the body, bringing the stiffness of anger, the drooping of sadness, the trembling of fear, and the bending of shame. They make you cold when you are hot. They make you tremble when you are trying to keep still. Most of all, they make you nauseated.
Many of us have been able to float on our tears to a new and better understanding of ourselves and the things we have experienced in life. Through our tears, we get in touch with those experiences that we have forgotten, hidden, or buried away in the pit of our souls. These tears have brought us to a deeper realization of ourselves and of the constant mercy and grace of God.
Angry tears spill forth from the outside corner of the eye, making them easier to wipe away as they come at unexpected moments and inappropriate times. They originate in the ego - the part of our being that presents to the world that we think we are. Angry tears create heat and stiffness in the body, because when we are angry, we usually don't know how to express what we feel. We definitely don't want anyone to know when we are angry, because anger is not acceptable or polite. Rather than display anger, we hold back, and the tears rage forth, shattering our self-image. More important, angry tears reveal to those around us our vulnerabilities. This, we believe, is not a wise thing to do.
Sad tears spill forth from the inside corner of the eye, finding their way across our nose, cheeks, and lips. For some reason we always lick sad tears. We know that they are salty, and the things that bring them forth are usually the bitter experiences in life. Sad tears come from the heart. They usually bring a bending of the shoulders and a drooping of the head.
Frightened tears take up the entire eye, clouding our vision, as fear will do. When we are frightened, we cannot see or think. Frightened tears are usually big tears that well up in the eye. They spill over the whole face. Frightened tears come from the soles of the feet. They shoot through the body and create trembling or shaking.
Then there are shame-filled tears, which fall when we are alone with our thoughts and feelings. Shame-filled tears come when we're judging ourselves, criticizing ourselves, or beating up on ourselves for something purely human that we have done yet can't explain to ourselves or to others. Shame-filled tears come from the pit of the stomach and usually cause us to bend over - not in pain, but in anguish.
Combination tears are the worst tears of all. They are filled with anger and sadness, with fear and shame. They have a devastating effect on the body, bringing the stiffness of anger, the drooping of sadness, the trembling of fear, and the bending of shame. They make you cold when you are hot. They make you tremble when you are trying to keep still. Most of all, they make you nauseated.
Many of us have been able to float on our tears to a new and better understanding of ourselves and the things we have experienced in life. Through our tears, we get in touch with those experiences that we have forgotten, hidden, or buried away in the pit of our souls. These tears have brought us to a deeper realization of ourselves and of the constant mercy and grace of God.
Friday, October 07, 2005
Goodbyes
Goodbyes are never easy, even when you know they're coming. Today my husband called to tell me that they were rushing his grandmother to the ER, and she wasn't expected to live. Upon seeing me cry, I told Peanut that her great-grandmother was very sick and dropped her off at school and soon joined my husband at the hospital. We are the only family in town so we were the first ones there. Grandmother had been revived after her heart stopped, but she had internal bleeding from taking asprin for so long, her blood pressure was very low, and she couldn't breath on her own, but she was hanging on. I think she was waiting on us to be there. No one should have to die alone. I know, I know, we're not really alone because Jesus or the angels are there, but I'm talking about family. The family soon showed up and we waited in the ICU waiting room for a few hours. We talked, we laughed, we enjoyed each other's company. We each got to see the shell of the woman we had loved for so long. Her heart may have been beating but she had already left to be with her friend, Jesus. It was so hard looking at this woman who has loved her family so much just lay there with a tube in her mouth her eyes glazed over. I don't know if she heard us or knew we were there, but we told her it was ok for her to go. I think that's what made it so hard. Just being able to say, 'we'll be ok. you go see heaven!' Grandmother passed from this life at 4:30 this afternoon with her family close by.
I picked Peanut up after she passed and being the mommy I had to tell her. It was so hard. How do you get across to a 5 year old that she won't get to play with her great-grandmother ever again. I picked up a couple of tissues on the way out the door and she asked why. As soon as we got to the car I asked her if she remembered me telling her about Great Grandma being sick this morning. She said she did. So I knelt down and told her that Great Grandma had died and went to be with Jesus. Oh the tears fell from both of us. I think mine were mostly because I had to tell my little girl about it. But I think she understood. About 10 mintues later she was right back to her normal happy self. I'm sure from time to time she'll tell me how she misses Great-Grandma, she tells me all the time how she misses her grandma's dog. Oh, how I wish we were able to release our sadness as quickly as children do.
I know that Grandmother is in a much sweeter place now. She is home with the angels that she loved so much. Her friend Jesus is probably having coffee with her right now. Grandmother never met a stranger and her love for life was expressed through her sparkling eyes and bright smile. She will be missed.
I picked Peanut up after she passed and being the mommy I had to tell her. It was so hard. How do you get across to a 5 year old that she won't get to play with her great-grandmother ever again. I picked up a couple of tissues on the way out the door and she asked why. As soon as we got to the car I asked her if she remembered me telling her about Great Grandma being sick this morning. She said she did. So I knelt down and told her that Great Grandma had died and went to be with Jesus. Oh the tears fell from both of us. I think mine were mostly because I had to tell my little girl about it. But I think she understood. About 10 mintues later she was right back to her normal happy self. I'm sure from time to time she'll tell me how she misses Great-Grandma, she tells me all the time how she misses her grandma's dog. Oh, how I wish we were able to release our sadness as quickly as children do.
I know that Grandmother is in a much sweeter place now. She is home with the angels that she loved so much. Her friend Jesus is probably having coffee with her right now. Grandmother never met a stranger and her love for life was expressed through her sparkling eyes and bright smile. She will be missed.
Thursday, October 06, 2005
This time next week
I'm actually taking a couple of days of vacation and going somewhere!!! That so rarely happens to me. Usually when I take time off I stay home and put my house back in order from lack of enthusiasm when I get home. But next Wednesday Momma will be coming over to the flat side of the state to stay the night with us. Then Thursday after dropping Peanut off at school she and I will head down to Oklahoma City for a weekend!!! Joyce Meyer will be in OKC Thursday-Saturday and we are really looking forward to it. I'm looking forward to having Mommy time! With gas prices as they are and weekends growing shorter (or so it seems) it's hard for me to make the 3 1/2 hour drive back home to my hometown. And every time I go, I'm required to bring Peanut along so guess who gets most of the attention? But I expect it. When I do make it back home it's usually for holidays and my brother, his wife, and four children show up too. Not that I'm complaining! I love my nieces and nephews very much, but sometimes a three-bedroom house gets a little small when you have 5 children, 6 adults, and a cat.
Momma and I get to do things that Daddy and Nickel would NEVER do. You know, like go to a couple of museums and the flower gardens (I think the orchids are in bloom inside the greenhouse). There are a couple of restaurants that we must eat at. And who knows, depending on time we MIGHT go see a chick-flick! There’s a lot that we want to do in our weekend.
The first message will be Thursday night at 7:00 pm so we have MOST of the day Thursday to play. There are two messages Friday, one at 10:00 am and the other at 7:00 pm. Then there are two messages on Saturday one at 10:00 and the other at 2:00. Brian Houston, from Hillsong will be preaching the Thursday evening and Saturday morning messages and Joyce the other three. I'm not 100% sure if we'll stay for the Saturday messages. Peanut has a soccer game at 1:00 back here so me might just play in the City in the morning and come home. I guess it'll all depend on how good Brian Houston is and if we want to listen to him again!
So, next week, when I'm out of pocket (oh yeah, probably won't have time to even check my email next weekend so forget about me blogging) don't worry about me. I'll be back either Saturday night or Sunday with LOTS AND LOTS to tell you about I'm sure! I'll probably even have a few pictures!
But of course, this is all NEXT week. :-(
I don't like waiting.....
Momma and I get to do things that Daddy and Nickel would NEVER do. You know, like go to a couple of museums and the flower gardens (I think the orchids are in bloom inside the greenhouse). There are a couple of restaurants that we must eat at. And who knows, depending on time we MIGHT go see a chick-flick! There’s a lot that we want to do in our weekend.
The first message will be Thursday night at 7:00 pm so we have MOST of the day Thursday to play. There are two messages Friday, one at 10:00 am and the other at 7:00 pm. Then there are two messages on Saturday one at 10:00 and the other at 2:00. Brian Houston, from Hillsong will be preaching the Thursday evening and Saturday morning messages and Joyce the other three. I'm not 100% sure if we'll stay for the Saturday messages. Peanut has a soccer game at 1:00 back here so me might just play in the City in the morning and come home. I guess it'll all depend on how good Brian Houston is and if we want to listen to him again!
So, next week, when I'm out of pocket (oh yeah, probably won't have time to even check my email next weekend so forget about me blogging) don't worry about me. I'll be back either Saturday night or Sunday with LOTS AND LOTS to tell you about I'm sure! I'll probably even have a few pictures!
But of course, this is all NEXT week. :-(
I don't like waiting.....
Scrambled Eggs
Peanut has decided that her new favorite breakfast is scrambled eggs. This is probably because I actually let her cook them. She's so funny! She cracks the eggs without getting them over EVERYTHING somehow. Then she stirs them up. I tried to show her to wisk them, but you know 5 year olds. But I wisk them real good before putting them in the skillet. Then she stirs. And stirs. And stirs. By the time she's done the eggs are in tiny little pieces but that's ok, they taste the same. Peanut is really looking forward to cooking them for her Nana when she comes over next week!
Have a sunny-side up day!
Monday, October 03, 2005
Elvis
I use to make fun of those people who claimed to see Elvis alive after all these years, but from this day forward not one single jest, jab, or joke will be made at those people's expenses. Because I too, have seen Elvis. Yes, it's true. Here is my story. Tonight I went into the local Piggly Wiggly (for those of you in northern USA and Canada, that's a grocery store we have here in the back woods of the South)--
- ok ok, so we don't actually have a Piggly Wiggly, gee, I can't finish my story if you keep interuptin' like that!
Anyway, back at the Piggly Wiggly, I was buying some spinich and 'maters (also known at tomatoes) when in he walked. His sideburns were down to his chin. He wore a black button down-Johhny Cash kind of shirt. He had on jeans and a black cowboy hat. I bet you didn't know that Elvis was an OU football fan. Well, he is. I saw the crimson OU pin in the middle of his hat! Elvis bought a few things. I couldn't really see what he had because he was holding it all pretty close. But I think he got a 'mater and some Cheetos.
I saw him get into a long black limo and drive away. He was drivin'. Hmm... didn't Elvis sing about a Long Black Limousine? Hmm.... intersting... very intersting.
- ok ok, so we don't actually have a Piggly Wiggly, gee, I can't finish my story if you keep interuptin' like that!
Anyway, back at the Piggly Wiggly, I was buying some spinich and 'maters (also known at tomatoes) when in he walked. His sideburns were down to his chin. He wore a black button down-Johhny Cash kind of shirt. He had on jeans and a black cowboy hat. I bet you didn't know that Elvis was an OU football fan. Well, he is. I saw the crimson OU pin in the middle of his hat! Elvis bought a few things. I couldn't really see what he had because he was holding it all pretty close. But I think he got a 'mater and some Cheetos.
I saw him get into a long black limo and drive away. He was drivin'. Hmm... didn't Elvis sing about a Long Black Limousine? Hmm.... intersting... very intersting.
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Sunday, October 02, 2005
Weddings Galore
Well as much pain as my legs are in today, yesterday was a really good day! Nickel was smashing in his tux and Peanut was adorable (as always) in her "wedding dress". No more weddings for a while.... oh, wait. Nickel's step-bro is getting married in two weeks... Do you think I can get away with wearing dressy slacks to that wedding? I think I'll try. No more pantyhose--at least not for a whole day!
Saturday, October 01, 2005
Weddings Galore
So, some of you may not know this, but at the church I work for I also double as the Wedding Coordinator. Today was my second wedding. It was a lot of fun. I don't do the wedding planning I just supervise the rehearsal and wedding ceremony (that is of course after putting it on the church calendar, collecting the fees, notifing staff, custodial, and security of time and date. I'm the one standing on the other side of the door telling the ushers which grandma to take down first, I tell the bridesmaids what order and when they're suppose to go, and of course I send the bride and her father down the aisle too. Then I get to take about a 15 minute break until the pastor sends them back up the aisle as man and wife.
Today, though was a little more hectic then most. I had the wedding at the church today. That wedding started at 2, but the bride and family were there at 10--which means I was there before 10. I don't like pantyhose--I think I'm allergic to them because they become very painful after a few hours and it sometimes takes days for me to recover. The lovely wedding was over at 2:30 and by 2:45 I was in the car. I left the church as is knowing there was still work for me to do. I drove 30 minutes to where Peanut and Nickel were ready for our friend's wedding. I got there just in time! That wedding started at 3:30 and by 4:30 I was back on my way to town to finish up the wedding I had left. Of course there was NO one there to help me put up all the pillers. The bride's mother had moved the heart shaped candel abras so her video camera could get a good shot, but she put them directly under my AC vents which mean my "drippless" candles ending up dripping all down the candles from the air pushing the wax out. Lovely--guess who got to clean that up. I found a ciggarette in a trash can and could smell the smoke. I walked by the men's bathroom and could smell smoke in there too.... what makes people think it's OK to smoke in a church?!?!?!? Come on, have some common sense!
Sorry, if I sound cranky or snippy tonight-- I am! I'm in pain and I hope I can walk tomorrow. If not, those friends I go to church with will read my blog and know that I must be stuck in bed.
But I really do love weddings!
Today, though was a little more hectic then most. I had the wedding at the church today. That wedding started at 2, but the bride and family were there at 10--which means I was there before 10. I don't like pantyhose--I think I'm allergic to them because they become very painful after a few hours and it sometimes takes days for me to recover. The lovely wedding was over at 2:30 and by 2:45 I was in the car. I left the church as is knowing there was still work for me to do. I drove 30 minutes to where Peanut and Nickel were ready for our friend's wedding. I got there just in time! That wedding started at 3:30 and by 4:30 I was back on my way to town to finish up the wedding I had left. Of course there was NO one there to help me put up all the pillers. The bride's mother had moved the heart shaped candel abras so her video camera could get a good shot, but she put them directly under my AC vents which mean my "drippless" candles ending up dripping all down the candles from the air pushing the wax out. Lovely--guess who got to clean that up. I found a ciggarette in a trash can and could smell the smoke. I walked by the men's bathroom and could smell smoke in there too.... what makes people think it's OK to smoke in a church?!?!?!? Come on, have some common sense!
Sorry, if I sound cranky or snippy tonight-- I am! I'm in pain and I hope I can walk tomorrow. If not, those friends I go to church with will read my blog and know that I must be stuck in bed.
But I really do love weddings!
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