Saturday, September 10, 2005

quiet time

Sometimes I crave alone time. Time where I don't have to tend to anyone or anything else. As a working wife and mother these moments of solitude are rare and hard to find. I don't need a whole lot of alone time, but sometimes I feel like the world is swollowing me whole with stuff.

I devote about 40 hours a week to my job- where even though I have an office all to myself I am surrounded by people. Other people in the office, people calling me, church members wondering the halls during the week. Then I come home and have to take care of my family until bed time. I know, I know, that's the life I chose- I'm not saying I want out now, I don't! I love being the wife/mom/working woman. I think I do a pretty good job being all of the above--well most of the time.

Right now I just want some peace and quite. It's almost 10 pm and I can't even talk my husband into going to the bedroom to watch the rest of the Nascar race so I can sit in the dark in the dinning room on my computer... I just want a few hours of:
No whining (from children OR adults).
No TV.
No laundry to fold.
No dishes to wash.
No toys to be picked up.
And I could bore you with many many more NOs....

Is it really too much to ask? Probably. I'm not asking for the complete opposite. I'm a social dragonfly (I know, I know, the saying is butterfly, but I just like dragonflies better so deal with it!) and love my family fiercly and would NEVER wish anything ill. I just want peace and quite for... I don't know, 4 hours... ok ok, I'll settle for 2... still too much? How about 30 minutes? Well, since I can't talk him into going to bed to watch the race maybe I'll go to bed and dream of a quite place.

Good night world, sleep well.

2 comments:

Danica said...

I like your blog. It's a rare jewel to find a good blog simply by surfing. So many stupid advertisements. Anyway, after viewing your profile I've concluded that I like your blog so much because we're so alike. Close in age. Both Christinas Both have little kids. Both have little time (I'm a student), but seem to be able to find the time to blog. And I like flowers, which is why I looked in the first place.
Cheers!
Danica in Canada

Leslee said...

Glad to meet you!! Thank you for reading my random outburst. Come back ANYTIME, you never know what I'll be saying next.