I'm really struggling today, friends. Today is suppose to be a happy day when a young man and the woman of his dreams come together and say heart-felt vows to each other. But today I'm considering what would happen if I just told them what spoiled little brat they and their wedding entourage are being. Two days ago they come to me and ask if they can use the church's printer and folder for their programs (they'll pay of course--but I haven't seen any money yet). They brought the paper to me and the printer wasn't working right so they left it for me to do. No, please call us when the printer is done. Nope, instead they say, here you go. I'm expected to smile and nod. I don't think I would've minded so much if they had brought it to me at least a week before. This week was a short work week. I only had two days to do my normal weekly stuff, end of month stuff, and beginning of month stuff to do. Guess what I actually got done this week. Half of a normal work week, the beginning of month stuff, and less then half of end of the month stuff. Oh well, nothing I can do about it now. Then Friday they actually had several people show up to help decorate and they actually did most of it. The bridesmaids like barking orders at me though. I don't really like that. There's on in particular that I'd like to take into the dressing room (that needs a key to get in or out) and tell her what a snot she's being and what my job does NOT entail!
I try to be flexible. This is their wedding and not mine. But when they push me out of my comfort zone the hairs on my back start sticking straight up!
So today I sent my boss, the pastor, an email. I told him we needed to talk about my request to resign and gave him reasons like: it takes time away from my family (which it does, I spend about three hours after work at the church for rehearsal and all day Saturday no matter what time the wedding is sometimes this works out to about $10 an hour, but lately it's only been about $7 and that's not worth my entire weekend), people call the previous wedding coordinators Unreasonable Control-Freaks and I really don't want to join that list, and people, both member and non-members, don't respect my authority (I tell people the reception area is close from 12-5 so what do they do? They call someone else to get their way. What am I suppose to do if E will let them in and not even bother to call me and tell me what's going on?).
I'm a little sad and I'm torn emotionally. I try to have a servant heart and I think how people walked all over Christ and made unreasonable demands from Him, but He was still gracious. I stuggle with showing people grace when they treat me like a dog. I guess that's the human response and since Christ was fully human AND fully God, which I obviously am not, He was able to rise above the human-ness and show grace.
So there it is. Got anything to say about it?