Procrastination

pro‧cras‧ti‧nate  /proʊˈkræstəˌneɪt, prə-/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[proh-kras-tuh-neyt, pruh-] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation verb, -nat‧ed, -nat‧ing.

verb (used without object)

1.	to defer action; delay: to procrastinate until an opportunity is lost.

–verb (used with object)

2.	to put off till another day or time; defer; delay.

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[Origin: 1580ƒ‚–90; <>prōcrāstinātus (ptp. of prōcrāstināre to put off until tomorrow, equiv. to prō- pro-¹ + -crāstināre, deriv. of crāstinus of tomorrow; crās tomorrow + -tinus suffix forming adjs. from temporal advs.); see -ate¹]

This is what I'm doing tonight. Or is it what I'm not doing? Either way I have guests arriving in 36 hours give or take and of that 36 hours I plan on sleeping at least half of those hours (that'd average out to 9 hours a night) and I wonder if my house will ever get clean. I think that was a run on sentence, but I'm getting tired and don't really care. I need to clean off the computer desk. Put the dead plant in the trash (yes, the Fresh-Cut Flowers Girl has a dead plant taking up space in her dining room. sue me). Disassemble my computer (so I'll have to use Nickel's which doesn't alert me to new emails as soon as they hit my inbox which might cause some angst) and move to the laundry room along with all my CDs and stuff. Move the computer desk to the other side of the room, find a table to sit my family at Thursday. I need to vacuum. I need to hit the nasty spots with the carpet shampooer I borrowed a week and a half ago from a really good friend who probably wants the shampooer back this year. I need to make another pumpkin cheese cake. I need to iron the table cloths. I need to catch the laundry up and put it all away beelse else in my house seems to want to do it. I need to find some chairs for my family to sit on while eating from the table I have yet to find. I need to...well, honestly, I need to get up off my rear end and just go do it. There I said it. Are you happy now?

Since I might not be able to be online for a couple of days (and you'll know why if I am...or not) I thought I'd leave you this:

The RevGalBlogPals have deemed this weekend a Delurking Weekend so you MUST confess to stalking my blog. I want to know who you are if you are visiting my blog, unless of course you don't like it then you don't have to comment I guess. If you have nothing else to say, say something funny and off the wall. I like a good chuckle.

Behave while I'm cleaning house!

Search Engines at work

LOL! My friend Susie posted about the strange search engine searches that come up for her blog. So I had to check mine out. They cracked me up!

21.05% blonde betty (gee, I call myself a blonde betty one time and my hits jump through the roof. What's up with that?)

21.05% i like big bucks (hee hee hee, funny song.)

10.53% fresh flowers for hair (I like baby's breath and fresia myself but a hibicus will give you that exoctic tropical look)

5.26% joanie a. rabbit, oklahoma (I don't know her, but I hope they find her)

5.26% making penguin sound (Peanut can do this if you need her to)

5.26% a picture of robin scorpios hair at luke and lauras wedding (she looked pretty, didn't she!)

5.26% fresh cut flowers (oh...well, that probably has something to do with my blog name)

5.26% ecclesiastes 3 1-8 (one of my favorite scriptures)

5.26% i am insecure about my looks (well, I'm not sure who you are but I do know that God made you just like you are and we all have difficulty feeling secure about our looks at one time or another)

5.26% what is a secure, insecure person (a secure person is just an insecure person faking security, trust me.)

5.26% shh there's a secret (yes, there is, but I'm not going to tell you)

5.26% lord's table captives liquid day what did you eat (well, since on the liquid day you get to get one real meal I skipped breakfast, usually opting for a slim fast or a smoothie, then I would eat a sensible lunch because I usually have lunch with my friends and for dinner I would have soup, usually chicken broth or tomato. Sometimes I would go to Starbucks and order a strawberries and creme frapaccino for dinner. This isn't exactly the best way to loose weight (the frapaccios and slim fast I mean), but it worked for me.)

What crazy searches come up for your blog?

Thought for the day

I once heard a brilliant speaker talk about Romans 8. During his explination this is what stood out to me and sometimes I need to be reminded of it.

[God] sees the real you. Undressed, no costumes, no pretense, and He loves you. He knows why you are hurting. He knows why you do the stupid things you do. He sees every mess up. And yeah, you're a mess, but you're His mess. And nothing you could do could ever seperate you from His love.

Sing a song of sixpence a pocket full of rye. Four and twenty blackbirds baked in a pie

Thanks Dr Mike for brightening up these pictures for me.

A cold front blew through last night but before it did these black birds came. There were hundreds of these blackbirds on the utility lines at one of the busy intersections in town. These birds fascinate me. I pulled into the bank's parking lot to take a couple pictures while the rest of the town drove past. The birds were sitting together making the utility lines look 3X thicker then normal. One would fly off the they next one would hop down the line to close the gap. There was an orchestra of chatter between these birds then something would happen and a whole flock would fly off at once circle the grocery store across the street and come back and start the chatter all over again. So now I can't seem to get that nursery rhyme out of my head. Sing a song of sixpence a pocket full of rye. Four and twenty blackbirds baked in a pie...

I went to the South Office today and ordered my favorite warm coffee and a slice of Pumpkin Bread. Breakfast of Champions, you know. Of course to shield myself from the cool winds that are whipping down the plains I went through the drive-thru. I get my stuff and off to work I go with a happy warm cup in my hand. I get to work and start drinking said happy warm cup and it's a little odd. Hmm... I think too much whip cream? I march my not quite awake bo-hind into the supply room and search for a spoon. I started stirring odd-happy warm cup and discover the reason behind the odd taste.

There is NO. COFFEE.

For some odd reason when I pay an absurd amount of money for coffee I want there to actually be SOME coffee in it. So I had to take my little not quite awake bo-hind back out into the cool winds that go whipping down the plains, and go back to South Office. This time I walked in and asked them politely to put some coffee in my coffee. They were embarrassed. I mean, their whole purpose for being to provide people with absurd costing coffee! Needless to say I'm back at work now and have almost finished my happy warm cup of (coffee tasting) goodness. I'll be my normal self in no time!

Friday Caption Contest

I know you know what to do. Now, lets not be hateful!

***NEWS FLASH***

This just in from Peanut.

There are no horses in Missouri!

Just thought ya'll would like to know. I'm not sure who her source is but she thinks they are very reliable. Hmm.. I wonder if its the same person who told her all about the penguins and other animals she educated me about back in May. Nor do I know how this information will effect your day, but it sure made me sigh with relief. I mean, we can't have horses running around all willy-nilly in Missouri, now can we?

Funny Stuff

Remember this picture from the caption contest this summer (don't stress if the picture doesn't load you'll have another chance to see it)? Well, our dear friend EmmaSometimes has gone beyond the call of duty and taken this to extremes and posted about it. Go read her story, it's too funny!

Irritated

Sometimes I hate not having an ipod. I don't know that I'd really listen to it that often if I had one. But there are times that I wish I did. Like tonight. I'd like to listen to some, shall we say secular music. Oh well, even Yahoo's music only wants to play christian and classical music to me. Oh well, there could be worse things.
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So Thanksgiving is at my house this year. My parents probably won't be able to come. This really disappoints me but there's nothing I can do about it so I'll just go on. I'm not sure what to fix. I could be really boring and fix what we normally have every year, ham and all the trimmings. But something inside me really wants to have bbq instead. I guess I could do both, huh? We can have left overs. I'm also going to fix a pumpkin cheesecake thing that sounds really good. I'll let you know how it turns out. What are you having for Turkey Day?
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I've been tweaking around with my page. Did you notice? I wish I was more creative. Wait, I am creative, I just don't have time or desire to sit down and make it look as snazzy as I'd really like so this'll have to do for now.
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I finally named my car. Her name is Gia. Nickel looked at me like I was talking Greek when I told him. But after explaining how I came up with the name he just shook his head at me. He's such a boy!
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Ah... Seven Mary Three just came on. I'm a happy little girl now.

Blonde Betty?

Yesterday: I got my hair cut. See how brown it is. I have some natural golden highlights, but in the light this picture was taken you can't really see them. Then I got the bright idea I needed more hightlights.

Before: I decided to add a few little highlights to my hair today. Oops. I guess I got carried away. It came out just a tad too blonde. I don't think I look good blonde. Nickel told me to just act dumb and everything would be good. Um, no!

After: A quick trip to the store to buy some brown and it's more tolerable. Still just a little more blonde then I want, but my hair's been through enough today so it'll just have to work. The brown is one of those that only last through 24 washes so by the time it washes out I can redo it to cover more of the blonde. Good plan, huh?

Just some random stuff

Ok, my little blue pills are working today... hee hee hee.... I don't really take the little blue pills.

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OMG! Today was Peanut's last soccer game. I put new batteries in the camera. Layed it on the table next to my keys. Then walked out the door without it. Of course.

It was an awesome game. If you've never watched little kids play soccer, shame on you. It is the most entertaining thing in the world. Most of the girls on Peanut's team have played together for 3 seasons now. That's really a good thing because they are learning to anticipate what their team mates will do. One of the girls was super shy her first season. She didn't want to get out on the field, didn't want to kick the ball, didn't want to talk. Now, we have to make her sit out a few minutes and rest! She also one of our strongest players. Here's a picture I took last spring. The shortest one is the only one that wasn't on the team this year but we added two others, who are obviously not pictured here. They rocked today. It was a close game the whole time and ended up tied. In U7 soccer they don't offically keep score but of course the parents do. This game ended in a tie 9-9. One of our girls had a Hat trick today. Too fun!
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Halloween has come and gone, but we have enough candy to last until Easter!

Peanut was a witch for Halloween. I braided her hair the night before to make it crimped like that. She had a hat but by the time this picture was taken she had lost it. It was in my office at work so I might make her dress back up one of these days and "re-do" her halloween picture.
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Here's a new picture of me. I might change my profile pic. Nah, I like the brown eyes.

Even broke little girls need to have pretty hair. I got some long bangs today. Whatcha think? Am I one sexy momma? I'm trying to let the back of my hair grow out, but it's a slow process. By the time it gets to the lenght I want it I hate it so I wack it off. Oh well. Someday I'll have long hair again.
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And what random post is truely random without a deep thought by Jack Handy?

I bet a fun thing would be to go way back in time to where there was going to be an eclipse and tell the cave men, "If I have come to destroy you, may the sun be blotted out from the sky." Just then the eclipse would start, and they'd probably try to kill you or something, but then you could explain about the rotation of the moon and all, and everyone would get a good laugh.

A little out of character? Maybe not.

My dear friend Susie at the Gobhole has inspired me. Not sure that's a good thing. Perhaps we can take a vote. For those of you that think this following post is good raise your hands.
Hmm... I see.

Ok, here's the product of my inspiration.


She posted this picture (and gave me permission to post it here) and upon seeing this picture the radio inside my head changed from the sweet calm music to Sir Mix A Lot's "Baby Got Back" only some of the words changed, here is what played in my head:

Oh my ga, Becky, look at that buck

It is so big

It looks like one of those hunter guys trophys

Who understands those hunter guys

They only get dressed up to climb a tree, ok?

I mean that buck

It's just so big

I can't believe it's so pointy

It's just out thereI mean, it's gross

Look, it's just so ugly

I like big bucks and I can not lie

You other hunters can't deny

That when a deer walk under shakin’ that tail

And a large rack on that head

You wake up

Wanna pick up that gun

Cuz you notice that buck it needs a good stuffin’

And on the wall to hang.

Deep in the woods it’s walking

I'm hooked and I can't stop staring

Oh, baby I wanna kill ya

And take your picture

My homeboys tried to warn me

But with that rack you got

You so horny

Ooh, rub all of that fur

You say you wanna get in my truck

Well stand still, stand still cuz I'm goona kill ya.

About the time I got to the end of the first verse I was able to change the song. Probably a good thing. I think I'll go look for my pretty blue pills....

The End

...of the soccer season is quickly approaching. Peanut's team is scheduled to play Thursday at 5 pm, she has ballet from 3:45-5 so we're not going to that game. That means that her last game will be Saturday! This is exciting and a little sad at the same time. Sad because I've forgotten my camera each week and still haven't had a chance to take the girls' pictures at all. Sad because we have family coming in this weekend to catch the game and I have a very messy house and no time to clean it. But exciting because I don't have to worry about planning my weekends around her soccer schedule. Exciting because it's getting colder outside and if anyone has ever played soccer you know it's 10 degrees cooler on the field then the rest of the town, no lie.

So, here it is Wednesday. I don't have an ounce of energy but am going to muster something because I need to clean the house. At least the rooms people will see. Too bad I don't have time to clean carpets. Maybe I'll get that done before Thanksgiving. I talked Claudia, Nickel's cousin's wife the other night. They live in Texas and have three kids but she got excited when I told her I wanted her to come up for Thanksgiving. I have my fingers, legs, toes, and eyes crossed. I think she's my long-lost-older-latina twin. If the government were to tap our phone and listen in to one of our conversations they'd be lost in about 30 seconds. We change subjects two to three times a minute and can resume a previous subject without any notice. We totally misspeak but the other always knows what we meant. It's wonderful!

Well, my house isn't getting any cleaner with me sitting here bloggin with ya'll. So, good night! Sleep tight. Don't let the bed bugs bite. But if they do, bite them back!

A Crazy Idea?

I'm semi-famous for coming up with Crazy Ideas. When I say to Nickel, "I've got an idea" he looks around for something to hold on to because he knows I'm going to be a whirlwind of activity until it plays out. Sometimes my idea die as soon as they are spoken, other times they take on a life of their own.

My latest, crazy idea is about Thanksgiving. It's coming up as quick as can be you know. Well, a few days ago Nickel suggested we invite my folks up for Turkey Day then we added his mom and uncle to the guest list but now... Now I have this crazy idea of inviting all my aunts, uncles, and cousins. When my grandmother was alive we met at her one bedroom house (as many as 30 but usually closer to 20) and we loved it. We learned to dress in layers because that many people in one house with the oven going tends to get warm. But I loved it. Thanksgiving and Christmas Eve were my favorite times of the year. Since 1997 we haven't been together for a holiday and every year I find myself more and more sad. But this year...But this year I have this crazy idea of inviting my whole family, which is closer to 40 now. But you can't tell Nickel, ok? I haven't had a chance to mention it to him. Oh, he'll be fine with the idea. I might leave out the number of people I'm inviting because he doesn't realy like crowds but I know that many people won't show up. But it'd be really cool if they did.

Well, I'm off to get ready for work. I must stay focused here. If I plan to do anything I better do my work so I can plan, right? Oh, if you're religious please pray for me. If you're not, just think happy thoughts for me, ok? Thanks.

I'll keep you updated if there's anything to post.

Phriday Photo

I'm not really looking for captions this week. I just thought you might enjoy some pictures I recieved in an email this week.

-L

This is actually my favorite one. We use to have an iguana named Mickey Mouse (Peanut named him when she was 2 so what do you expect). I miss that little guy. The lizard in the picture isn't an iguana but just reminds me of one.

May the force be with you young jedi masters!

A little distracted

Ok ya'll. I've been a little distacted lately. You may have noticed I'm not commenting very often but...I have an excuse. I really do.

You see, Elizabeth is pregnant. She's not sure if it's her husband, Lucky's baby or her ONS Jason. Me, I want it to be Jason's because I love Jason. Jason's life is dangerous, but he can protect Elizabeth and her children (she already has the cutest little boy Cameron). Lucky is a druggie who got Maxie knocked up and I just can't forgive him for that. Yeah, Jason is still in love with Sam. And I like Sam, but she's got her own issues with her mother and her ONS with her step-father. Jason just needs to let Sam go and go back to Liz, who he's had an on again off again relationship for 9 years.

Then there's Lulu, poor thing, she ended up pregnant after tricking Dillon into being with her when really he was in love with Georgie. Lulu had an abortion and really needs her mother right now. But her mother, Laura has been in a catatonic state for the last four years. However Dr. Robin Scorpio has told Luke about an experiemental drug that might reverse Laura's condition. Luke instructed Dr. Robin and Dr. Hottie Patrick Drake to give Laura this experiemental drug yesterday. Will it work? I hope so! Lucky, one of Laura's sons knew that Luke was considering this experiemental drug but didn't say anything to his sister Lulu or half brother Nic. They found out yesterday and I'm sure they're going to be a little ticked off. This drug could make their mother worse. It's a waiting game. If she does wake up she's going to be a bit confused. Lulu was just a girl the last time she spent time with Laura, Nic has a new son, and Lucky...well, I've already discussed the mess his life is in.

So, that's what's got me distracted. I hope you understand.

My day off

Cindy said...
Inquiring minds want to know...what you decided on?

Well, Cindy, since you asked I'll tell you. Saturday morning Nickel didn't get out the door until close to 10 am so my day didn't really start until then. It's not I couldn't have gone out for coffee without him, I just didn't want to. I got dressed and just spent the morning relaxing. After he left I went to the ATM, drained the account (just kidding, but I did get some money) and went shopping. My first and really, only stop was at Lowes. There I found the color I wanted to paint Peanut's room. "Bonita Berry", it's a Dora color. Very bold. So bold I could only do one wall pink.

But standing there I saw an aqua color that I just fell right in love with, it's name was Cool Aqua. Here's a couple of pictures I took this morning. I was sitting down trying to get a good angle. I missed. Oh well. You'll just have to deal with it, I'm not going to take a million pictures of my living room just to find the perfect angle! The lighting at 7:30 am isn't the greatest either.

I was actually pretty sacred after the first coat that all my green plants (like the calla lily pictured here) and it's pot would clash, but in real life it doesn't. I guess the aqua paint and the greens have similar under-tones that they actually look pleasing to the eye. Even the blue chair looks fine sitting next to the wall. Of course the pictures don't do it justice. You'll just have to take my word for it or come over and see it for yourself!

The pink in Peanut's ballerina pictures (taken last year for Christmas) really pop and my hallway is red and the look good together. Who knew that red and aqua were actually nice compliments to each other. Well, obviously the last bride I had because those were her colors and impressed me. The hall has been red for several years now. I would have never chosen the aqua to go next to the red without seeing them in the wedding last month.

So, that's basically what I did on my day off. I painted two of my living room walls and one of Peanuts. While the paint dried I watched Pride and Prejudice and Just Like Heaven. I also watched several TLC programs and cleaned other parts of the house. I was very very relaxed and ready for the work week to start on Monday. I might let the two of them go out of town again someday. Just not soon, I like the rest of my walls. :-)

What will I do?

Oh, this is a once in a life-time post I am sure. So Peanut is in Tulsa playing with her Grandma until Sunday. Thank you Jesus for Fall Break! And tomorrow morning Nickel's leaving for Kansas City. He's going with a bunch of guys from work to go watch a Chief's game.

So, for the first time since...well, let me think...since the end of April 1999, I will be home alone tomorrow.

I hesitated posting about this because I don't know if ya'll are stalkers, but then I thought, why would anyone stalk me? I mean, come on, this is me we're talking about. And are stalkers really bright enough to find and read my blog if I never use my or my family's really real names? I talk about Enid, but it's a pretty big town and most of Enid doesn't know where I live so why would any of you, especially since most of my readership is in the northwestern part of the US and Southwestern part of Canada. Hmm... did I have a point to all this?

Oh, yes I did.

Ok, so I need your help. I tried to talk AJ into coming for a visit, but she has to go get Cheese and stuff from the Indians so that's a no go.

I thought about painting my living room while Nickel was gone (I usually do a "while you were out" project when he's gone like this- last time I bought and built a bookshelf, hung up some shelves and pictures). But I can't decide on a color. I thought about painting two of Peanut's walls pink because she beggs every chance she gets for a pink room (it's purple with lots of pink stuff in it). But because of the wreck totalling my car, having to buy a new car, TT&L for the new car, and a $144 "failure to yeild" ticket, I'm a little short on blowing money, so that's a no go.

My only other options for this weekend are
1. Shampooing the carpets in my house. It's needed, but gee, when am I ever going to have a whole day to myself?
2. Lounging on the couch in my pjs watching Pride and Prejudice, Emma, Just Like Heaven, Sweet Home Alabama, 2 Weeks Notice, 40 First Dates, and all the other chick flicks I have. But that almost seems like a waste of a perfectly good day that I could get "something" accomplished.

So, readers (READ: THE POINT) what should I do on my 1-day-this-might-not-happen-again-for 20-years-so-make-the-best-of-it-day off from being a mom and wife?

Quote of the Day

"Sometimes I think war is God's way of teaching us geography."

-Paul Rodriguez

The bad news...with a twist of good

Yes, faithful readers, I was in a car accident Friday. It was my fault because the sun is not liable even when it obstructs vision. I was heading south. I had a stop sign, which I stopped at, looked east and got a big eyeful of sunshine. The west bound truck did not have a stop sign. It wasn't until I heard the sound of metal crunching did I see him. The kid (he's just in highschool) had sped up to make the light and didn't see me pull out. I of course got the ticket for failure to yeild and he got a pass to school and no ticket. That's fine, he really didn't do anything wrong and he couldn't have been going terribly fast for there to only be this much damage. Poor kid, he was nice and so was his dad who showed up a few minutes after the accident. Neither of them yelled at me or acted immaturely which I appreciated because I was a basket case until Nick showed up about 25 minutes later (he works out of town and took a little while to get to me). Here's what my car looks like now. The body shop guys were nice enough to put some plastic over the non-exsitant window to protect it from the rain.

See how the wheel's going to the inside? That's the result of a bent strut. The wheel itself is in actually pretty good condition. The door is made of plastic so it popped out making it look better then it is. It's torn so the door would have to be replaced... if they didn't total it, which we're 99.998% sure they will.

Again, I'm fine. I was really sore on Saturday which made Peanut's soccer game almost unbearable (especially since my chair was still in the back of the camaro and the body shop was closed so we couldn't go get it) and then we went car shopping. Here's the one I'm buying. I should be able to pick it up tomorrow if everything goes well. Believe it or not, it's not a Chevrolet and it's not a camaro. It's a Nissan Maxima. I might name her Maxie... but then again maybe not. She's white, but there's a pearl color to her paint which the picture gives not justice for. I know I know, pigs and monkeys are flying somewhere in the world right now!


Saturday we took a little break from the car shopping to let Peanut do something fun. For the low low price of free she got to play in dirt and plant this airplane plant. I don't know what happened to the pansies but she was just as happy with this one. She first named it Airplane, but now is leaning more towards Roger. I have NO clue where she came up with that name. Most of the time she names things after her friends, but I haven't heard of a Roger before. I think it fits the plant though. It should grow beautifully with her saying, "Hello Roger" every morning.

Blogger seems to think I've met my image quota for the day and won't let me upload the pictures of Peanut and Roger so I'll have to try again later. Thanks for all your well wishes!

Well, the good news is...

...I had just dropped Peanut off at school so I was alone.

...no one was hurt.

...a really nice lady stopped and helped me out by calling the police and making sure I was ok.

...Peanut was at school.

...Nickel knows every salvage, tow, paint, and repair place in the county.

...no one was hurt.

...safety glass holds together pretty well.

...no one was hurt.

...the wheel isn't bent.

...Peanut wasn't there because I couldn't have taken care of her because I was having an emotional break down myself.

The bad news...to be continued...

Fall

Fall is one of my favorite times of year. I love the leaves turning their beautiful shades of yellow, orange and red. I love bringing out my snuggly clothes and laying in bed or on the couch with a good book (like Pride and Prejudice). I love the crispness of the air as the temperature starts to descend and I love that it's not quite cold yet. I fall in love with the blueness of the sky each October as it seems to be more brilliant even if just for a moment. But that's just the kinda girl I am. I love fall, hate winter (it's too cold for me).

Peanut is a girl of summer. She loves long days. She loves playing outside for hours. She loves wearing tank tops and shorts. She doesn't like fall so much. Oh, she likes breaking out the winter wardrobe but she'd rather not actually wear it everyday. She needs to feel the warm sun on her skin. This hasn't exactly been the week of warm sun. While I'm enjoying the cooler weather she's not. She's been very agitated this week and I think it has a lot to do with the lack of warm weather in her life. I hope she adjusts to this weather quickly (because I'm not ready for her to start tanning just for the warmth)!

I am trying to teach her that there are good things about fall. The first cup of hot chocolate (I need to go buy a new thermos for this weekend's soccer game), snuggling on the couch to watch a good movie, planting pansies that will survive long after the other flowers in our lives fade away. In fact, for those of you in the area Plants A Plenty is holding a free fall workshop for kids this weekend. You have to call and register them so look the number up if you want to go. Peanut is going. They're going to get to play in dirt and plant some of those pansies for free! I'm sure this is to get the parents there so they'll buy stuff while waiting on their cherub faced children. I'll probably work too. I'm a sucker when it comes to flowers...if you haven't guessed.

Lazy

You know what I hate? I hate when I'm in a great mood and I feel like I'm on top of the world and nothing's going to pull me down then just a few days later I've lost all my motivation and I turn into a lazy couch potato. What's up with that? Why is that?

So, that's what I've been doing for the last couple of days. Sure I managed to go to the grocery store tonight, but only because I wanted some better food then I had in my cubbords.

I want to loose weight, who doesn't? I get all motivated and exercise like it's going out of style then all of a sudden I'm too tired or it just doesn't sounds appealing to me.

Anyway, I hope ya'll are doing well and staying motivated. Maybe I need a girls lunch out this week. Anyone intersted? I'd call you, but I'm too lazy.

Weekend Update

Hey Kids. Just got home and wanted to touch in with you all. It's been days since I last posted so I thought I'd make this extra special by including pictures!!! Hold on tight, the weekend will fly by and be over before you know it!
First off, here's me and the Peanut as we were heading east Thursday night. Nickel was driving and threatened to turn around if I took a picture of him driving a dodge. Shhh... don't tell him I told you about him driving a dodge. He's a Chevy man and pretty much dislikes the others.

Friday morning we took a little road trip to Greenleaf State Park near Fort Gibson (sorry Aunt Josefina we didn't have time to stop and say hi). Me thinks this will be our future vacation spot. This weekend would have been perfect for camping. It wasn't busy the weather was perfect. Too bad we didn't have time to fish.

Saturday was the big wedding. Here's a picture of me with the beautiful bride. Look... my dress zipped! The wedding was held at her parents house in Eastern Oklahoma. The weather could not have been more perfect, the couple more happy, or the weekend any better!

My brother and his wife dropped their three kids off at my parents house Saturday night. Caleb is autistic and kept wanting to go in the woods behind my parents house so after lunch today I went him, his big sister and Peanut on their "nature walk". There's a fence around my parent's land but that doesn't mean Caleb won't try to climb over it if left alone. My parents have about an acre and a half land and about half an acre behind their house is wooded. The kids love it as much as I did when I was growing up. They kept making up their own little "trails" which were nothing more then a clear spot surrounded by little trees adjacent to another clear spot.


Two tired little girls driving home after an exhausting weekend!

Thought for the Day

Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.

A Fun Little Meme

1. A Place You've Visited and Your Favorite Thing there. Ohio- I went with a highschool friend one summer. I really liked seeing all the old houses and tried to imagine what it was like when they were built.

2. Country You'd Like to Visit and Why Italy- I've always wanted to experience the way of life there.

3. A Place From History You'd Like to Visit and Why I'd have liked to have known my grandmother as a little girl. To experience the things she did.

4. A Place You Know a Lot About I'm most familiar with my dreams. Beyond that I don't know enough about anywhere.

5. A Place You'd Like to Learn More About England in the 1800's.

6. A Fictional Place You'd Like to Visit Pemberly, but only if I were Elizabeth Bennett

You are welcome to play along. Let me know if you do!

My So-Called Life

Nothing exciting is going on in my life right now. I'm disappointed. I'm in baby mode and well, my husband isn't. He's so mean! And just because he's so mean he's at home with a fever and breakfast coming back up.

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I finally bought some shoes to wear to the wedding that's coming up in a couple of weeks. They cost $60. I don't like them $60 bucks worth but oh well. I'll take what I get and not throw a fit.

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Speaking of weddings, I worked my last wedding for the year and possibly ever. I'm tired of dealing with bridesmaids that think they are entitled. They're not. I quit.

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Peanut is playing soccer again. This year they chose to be called the Bratz. I'm a firm believer that your kids will act like what you call them (yes, names have meaning) so I'm a little fearful of the girls being called Bratz. I'm not going to stress over it though. This year we have a ref. This is good because some of the teams we played last year cheated and now they can't. We also have a bigger field and net. This is good because some of our girls (read: Peanut) has a lead foot and tends to over shoot the little goals.

I'll post some pictures when I actually remember to take my camera to the game. Maybe this weekend.

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Speaking of this weekend I'm going to do a yard sale. I hate yard sales. I never have enough to actually have a yard sale, but my mother-in-law is having one and she's invited 4 or 5 other women to throw stuff in it. Now I can sell all that crap that's been collecting dust for me.

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Have a great day!

Weekend Funny Photo

This one made me laugh!

People Siting

One of the things I like to do is watch people. People are so funny and here are two examples of what I've observed over the last couple of days.

Lady One: After dropping Peanut off at school on Monday I headed to work taking my normal route. I drive west and the sun isn't in my eyes, but it was obviously in the eyes of oncoming traffic because I saw an elderly lady, a passenger in an older vehicle, holding a fist full of dollars in front of her eyes to block the bright sun. I laughed out loud the rest of the way to work. Some people use their sun visors, some people use a wad of cash. Whatever works!

Lady Two: I had to go to the mall yesterday to complete my outfit for the wedding I'm in in October. I found what I needed, checked out and was about to go on my merry little way. As I was gathering my belongings and trying to shove my change in my purse the lady in line behind me laid up a couple of outfits that looked exactly the same only different sizes. The small one looked odd, but I didn't have my glasses on so I couldn't see it very well to tell what was wrong. I smiled and turned to walk away. Next thing I heard was the cashier telling the lady she couldn't return the smaller size because it had be obviously worn. I glanced back, I now had my glasses on, and could tell it had been through the washer a couple of times. Yes, I'm sure the baby did outgrow it quickly. They usually do at that size. The things people try to get away with. It was really sad. I didn't stay around to listen to her argue. I'm thinking that perhaps she should go ask the lady that uses her money as a sun visor to buy her some new clothes.

Something I heard

I've been listening to a preacher on the internet for a couple of weeks now. He's brought up some questions that I've long wondered, but never really asked. He's way outside the box and goes against most of my upbringing. But still, I find what he has to say fascinating and am quite intrigued. I'm not ready to drop all other teachings, nor am I ready to take off these filters that were installed in my way of thinking when I was a child in Sunday School. I'm just listening and thinking and reading and praying.

For instance, hell. How can it be a big fire pit and be totally dark? Doesn't fire light things up?

The other guy that was crucified the same day as Jesus. He didn't pray a sinners prayer. He didn't confess every single sin. All he did was believe Jesus was who he said he was. Then Jesus said that because he believed that DAY he would be in Paradise with him. Wouldn't the same apply to everyone that believed?

But then he goes on to say that Christ saved his whole creation. Every sinner. No, maybe you didn't hear me, EVERY SINNER. And because he has saved every sinner (ie, every single person that's walked this earth even the people that haven't heard of Christ. Even the people that choose to believe in Allah. Even the people that refuse to believe in any god. Even the two bit whore you saw walking down the street the other day. Even her.) that we'll all go to be with our savior at the end of this life. This one, I must admit, is a little difficult for me to wrap my mind around. Not the part about Christ coming for even the two bit whore, because I do believe that every person is welcome in God's eyes, the part I can't seem to wrap my mind around is saving grace for even the people who choose not to believe in Him in this life.

Anyway, all that to say, last week he made this statement on grace and mercy:
Grace is when God chooses to give you something you do not deserve.
Mercy is when God chooses to not give you something you do deserve.

Go Ahead, Make Me Laugh

Here's you chance to make me laugh. I promise, it isn't hard. Got a caption for this week's photo? If so, leave it in the comment section. It's not really that hard.

More Fresh-Cut Flowers

I have some new flowers up over at the other blog if you're intersted in checking it out.

Peanut the Mechanic

If you haven't had a chance to watch the video in the below post make sure you do that before leaving today. It's something!

Here are some more pictures of my mechanics. She and her daddy are working on my 1979 Z28 Camaro. The motor and transmission are both shot so they are pulling stuff off to be able to pull the motor out and replace it with my father-in-laws motor (don't get me started about how emotional I am about having the motor he built put in my car just know how touched I am).

Of course Daddy did all the hard stuff. Here, Peanut is using a ratchet to loosen up some bolts that were holding down the carborator and distributor. She had already removed all the plug wires.

Peanut the Mechanic

Peanut getting the practice she needs for when it comes time to rebuild her 1972 Chevelle....

A Square Peanut?

So the other day I took the Peanut to the doctor for a check up. The nurse came and got us, weighed her, 44 lbs, and took her height 45 inches.

"Oh look," replied the nurse, "you're almost square."

I'm kinda glad she's not.

*I was going to upload this funny picture but blogger won't let me*

Shh... It's a secret.

Well, it MUST be a secret. Yesterday I discovered there's a park just around the block from my house. No lie! We bought our house back in 2002 and not once in the last four years did anyone show me this park much less mention it's existence! Yesterday a girl from work who lives a few blocks away from me brought this flyer that she found on her door. There's going to be a kid's carnival at Hidden Park and it had a map. I pointed out where I live and the route I take on my walks. I've never seen this park! Well, in my defense it is down an alley and even with a dog I don't go down alleys alone. Plus there are no signs pointing it out from any of the main roads. So last night Nickel, Peanut, and Snoogans (the dog) and I went on a very short walk (around the freakin' block!) to Hidden Park (it's real name) and played for about 30 minutes. There's not much to this little park. Just a big 6-person swing (you remember, like the one you had at elementary school growing up) and a slide. When we got there, there wasn't a single soul in the park. It was kind of nice, the weather was perfect and Peanut got to play (I even swung). Nickel and I wondered why there wasn't anymore playground equipment.

Well, now that I know about the Hidden Park I think we'll be taking more trips there to play!

Prayer Request

Hello friends, I hate to be so depressing but lately it feels like that's all I'm surrounded by.

Last night a group of four friends ages 18-20 were driving home to Enid from Tulsa and were tragically killed in a collision. Isaac, the oldest of the bunch, was an acquaintance of mine. We met last year in dance. He was one of the sweetest people I've ever known. The oldest of 8 or 9 kids he never met a stranger.

Want to hear something ironic? This last weekend his family held a going away party for him as he was about to leave for a year on a mission trip. He got to see all his family and close friends and tell them goodbye. For years he has participated in a Easter Drama called Eternal Crossings. He played a guy that was killed in a car accident and went to Heaven. No one doubts that that is where he is today. The church that is trying to organize the funeral for the four kids stopped by my work today to see if our facility was available and how many it would accommodate. Usually we have a couple things booked every day of the year unless the facilities are closed. Well, this weekend we just so happen to have not one single thing booked in our facilities. Seems, God's been working in this situation for a few years, doesn't it.

Please, take a moment today to pray for the families that were effected by this tragedy. Pray also for their friends and the lives they've touched their short time here on earth.

Thank you.

Tagged

I've been tagged by Susie and since I'm not doing anything exciting this weekend. I'll play along.

1. Three things that scare me:
Being alone in dark unfamiliar place
Snakes
big big dogs

2. Three people that make me laugh:
Peanut
Hutch (a guy I knew in high school that always made me laugh)
Haley

3. Three things I hate the most:
Liars
Rude people
protractor

4. Three things I don't understand:
Calvinism
Osmosis and why I can't just absorb text book materials
how big the internet really is

5. Three things I'm doing right now:
Wondering what I need to do to keep my China Doll from dying
drinking koolaid from a Dasani bottle
wishing I could go take a nap

6. Three things I want to do before I die:
Finish college
learn ballet
be a size six

7. Three things I can do:
Make a dump cake (it's in the oven right now)
math
make paper snow flakes

8. Three ways to describe my personality:
outgoing
friendly
sweet

9. Three things I can't do:
submit to something I know to be wrong
imagine myself somewhere and actually be there
walk through walls (kinda goes with the second one)

10. Three things I think you should listen to:
The voices (I know I'm not the only one that hears them)
Me- now go buy someone special some flowers. If you have no one to buy flowers for email me and I'll give you the name and address of someone you can send flowers to.
You mother

11. Three things you should never listen to:
The voices that tell you to do bad things like kill, steal, lie
People who tell you you're not good enough
Infomercials

12. Three things I'd like to learn:
How to loose weight by wishing it off
How to tell all the flowers of the world apart
Ballet

13. Three favorite foods:
Chicken Quesadias
Pasta
icecream

14. Three beverages I drink regularly:
water
cherry coke
milk

15. Three shows I watched as a kid:
Night Rider
A Team
Seasame Street

Tooting my own horn

Last month I told you about Haley, my best friend from high school, getting engaged(finally). The town I grew up takes about three and half hours to drive to so it was cheaper for me to buy it and have her to mail me the dress then for me to drive there and rent it, have them altered, and try it on before the wedding. When I got the dress I immediately tried it on. It looked too small. It was. With much struggle and no breathing Nickel was finally able to zip the dress up without bursting any seams. Barely.

With Nickel's dad dying I wasn't able to focus on the dress or loosing weight. I was just trying to make it from one day to the next without an emotional breakdown. So, now the world has calmed down and normalcy, whatever that really is, has resumed. I've been making better eating choices. I've limited myself to just one soda a day (I haven't limited myself on the size of that soda, sometimes it's a medium coke, sometimes it's a large- but only one). And I've added more exercise to my daily routine. Mostly my daily routine includes walking, but I added in some strength training and pilates whenever I can fit it in. My bathroom scale hasn't moved very much, but I know my clothes are getting loose, even the ones I had buy a few months ago.

So, this morning, I thought, 'I wonder how close I am to that dress fitting.' So, I did what any girl would have done, I put it on! And you know what, it zipped up. Now, I struggled with it a little bit, but I was trying to zip a dress by myself. But IT ZIPPED! I didn't even have to keep from breathing either! I'm so excited. I'm not going to have it altered (I'm short, it's 3 feet too long) for a couple more weeks so who knows what kind of alterations will need to be made by then. Doesn't that sound exciting??!?!? Well, it does to me. And that's why today I'm tooting my own horn!!!

In other news, my friend Simple Faith has started a blog. Why don't ya'll stop by her place and tell her hello and give her a blogger welcome!!

Insecure

in‧se‧cure  /ˌɪnsɪˈkyʊr/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[in-si-kyoor]
-adjective
1. subject to fears, doubts, etc.; not self-confident or assured: an insecure person.
2. not confident or certain; uneasy; anxious: He was insecure about the examination.
3. not secure; exposed or liable to risk, loss, or danger: an insecure stock portfolio.
4. not firmly or reliably placed or fastened: an insecure ladder.


To look at me you wouldn't think I was insecure. To meet me, I'm usually outgoing, friendly, and confident. But I really am insecure. I'm terrified of not be liked. I'm terrified of looking like a fool. I'm scared to death that I won't be good enough or even just enough when it comes to a certain someone. Mostly, I just fake being secure in hopes of someday actually being secure. That's what all the Mary Kay directors said when I started out pushing lipstick, 'pretend your a director until you are a director and you'll already know how to act' they said. Well, I gave up and never made director but I've tried to take that little piece of wisdom with me. Someday I'm going to have to figure out how to get over being insecure.

300

Guess what, this is my 300th post. Hmm... you're still reading my random outburst? Bless you! Too bad I don't really have anything profound (boy that word looks funny to me tonight for some reason) or witty to say. Peanut likes school. She hates going to bed. I think she'll outgrow that in about 65 years. I hope.

So, I'm not a fan of reality shows. I hate to see people fight over some prize. Then I found The Messengers on TLC. Have you seen the show? Well, you should! It's awesome, but tonight it made be mad, but then I came to the computer and got happy again.

Ok, if you haven't watched the show I'll tell you a little bit about it. They started off the show with 10 speakers. Each week these speakers go on a field trip of some sort. Week one they spent the night homeless on Skidrow. They worked on a farm, spent a day either blind or lame, visited a children's hospital, and a morgue. Each week they are given a topic for which they have to write a two minute inspirational speach. After they're done the audience selects the speaker that touched them the most and the least. I agree with the audience the first 4 weeks. I didn't this week. One of my favorites, Robert Rutherford, was eliminated after a very moving speech. All the speakers did well this week so I know the audience must have had a hard time. I was ready to give TLC a piece of my mind, signed up to read and participate on their message boards. I got into a Fourm where they were talking about him. And there was a link to the church he preaches at. This is where the happy comes back. All I have to do is click here and there and wham, I can hear the Message that God has blessed him with. See, God does work good for all things. If you'd like to listen to what he has to say, you can visit him here. You can even listen to some of the worship songs.

Ok, well, there's my 300th post. Goodnight, have a great weekend. I may or may not have time to put up a picture tomorrow. But you're welcome to stop by this weekend to check and see.

One last fling

Well, before we know it the sun will be going to bed earlier and coming up later. The hot humid air will dry out and become cold. The flowers will take their much needed rest as we begin to pile on more and more layers of clothing. Picnics at the lake will be replaced by hot cocoa by fire. First the pumpkins will appear with their funny and scary faces carved and painted. Fresh baked pies will be cooling as families gather together to give thanks for the year's blessings.

BUT....

Before all that I'm going to have one last fling with summer. Nickel has to go to Dallas on business this weekend so Peanut and I are going to play in Tulsa. We have lots of family in Tulsy Town and will probably crash with one of them. It's been a couple of years since I've been to the zoo. We might take in the Reggae Fest. My brother-in-law has a pool that has been tempting me for months. And we might even brave Woodland Hills Mall! Hope you all are able to have one last fling with summer as well!

Phriday Phunny Photo

Photo Guy took this picture last Saturday. I wasn't there so I have no idea why Peanut is giving him this look. Got a funny caption for her? Go ahead and put it in the comments section.

Open House

We took Peanut to her school's open house last night. Her teacher was hired yesterday. The teacher she was suppose to have is out on medical leave and may or may not come back later in the school year. This information had me just a little bit worried. But in conversation we discovered she owns a Chevelle.

Daddy thinks she'll be a great teacher.

This and That

First off, have you noticed my profile pic? I have TWO eyes now. I can really see now!!

Second, here's a picture of Photo Guy taking pictures of Peanut and her new camera on the front porch.

That's all the pictures blogger will let me upload this morning. I'll try again later.

Peanut

Photo Guy, Nickel's cousin, was here last week. He came in the day before Pops died and stayed the rest of the week for the funeral. Photo Guy is an amazing photographer but he's also an amazing person. He came over to the house a couple of times to hang out with Nickel, and I really think he made a huge difference for all of us this week. Photo Guy took tons (I'm guessing well over a thousand or two) of pictures and I managed to get 150 of them out of him by threatening him with bodily harm. Here's just a taste of what he took.


Peanut and her daddy. I think this is one of my favorites because of the look on her face and how Nickel's looking at her. It's their personalities in a nut-shell!

We've had some amazing blue skies lately. It must be getting close to October, because you know that's when the sky is the bluest!


Peanut bought an old camera at a yard sale a couple of weeks ago. Of course when Photo Guy showed up she had to impress him with her camera skills! I'll have to see how well the picture I took of him taking her picture of her taking his picture turned out.

Phriday Phunny Photo

I haven't forgotten about you all! Here's a phunny picture to start (or end or be the middle of- whatever!) your day! Now THAT'S a cool tattoo! But just incase you don't really like the freakishly cool tattoo, I'll give you another picture.

A Time To Die

Thank you all so much for your prayers and warm wishes over the last few days. Pops passed away yesterday about 4:00 pm. We can all begin the healing process. Thank you.

And Now for Something Completely Different

The hardest part

The hardest part of waiting on someone to die is well, the waiting. When someone dies suddenly or at least without much warning you grieve and you're done. When you're waiting on someone to die you have to wait. Every time the phone rings you wonder, is this the call? I love my father-in-law and I don't want him to die, but I don't want him to suffer any longer then he has to either.

Tonight Peanut was being, well, her normal stubborn strong-willed self, but I sensed something different. I think the stress is getting to her as well. I tried to sing to her tonight, she tried to sing along, I cried. I often sing this song to her when she's had a bad day or is scared of the dark. Tonight the words were straight from my heart. Here's the words the song we sang:

Here these words, oh Lord I pray,
For my strength has gone away,
Give me patience now to see,
That you're goodness covers me,
I must know that you still care
That in times of deep despair
I can reach my hand to you
And you'll be there.

Guide my steps when I can't see,
Help me Lord, to trust in thee,
Be my shelter on the way,
As I struggle towards the day.
For the strength of your good hand
Will direct me towards the land
And the promise you have made
Will lead me there.

Abide with me, fast falls the eve'n tide
The darkness deepens
Lord, with me abide
When other helpers fail and comforts flee
Help of the helpless
Oh abide with me.

Guide my steps when I can't see
Help me Lord, to trust in thee
Be my shelter on the way,
As I struggle towards the day
For the strength of your good hand
Will direct me towards the land
And the promise you have made
Will lead me home.
And the promise you have made
Will lead me home.

Life

Perhaps a better title for this post would be death. I'm sick and tired of death. Death needs to go away and stop bothering the people I love.

But there is a time to die and my father-in-law's time is drawing very near. He had cancer a few years back and beat it, but recently it came back with a vengence. Slowly but surely he is dying. He's mostly skin and bones and spends more time sleeping then waking.

But he's surrounded by people that love him. Over the weekend he had both boys and a host of friends and loved ones. He's even seen most of the grandkids.

We don't know when his appointed hour will be, but it will be soon. Pray for his wife and sons in the coming days as well as his peace and comfort.

Thanks.